I have no real medical reason for doing this. It just happens every once in a while. My sugar levels drop. Plummet would be a better word.
Sometimes I realize what's going on at the very beginning and I can do something about it before it gets too bad. At other times, it hits so fast that I'm shaking and bitchy before I know what's happened.
The shaking is bad enough. I'm having a difficult time typing right now. The inability to focus isn't so bad. The personality shifts are slightly disturbing though. I get *snarky* and *bitchy*. I find myself snapping at friends, getting irratated at unheard of speeds. Just now, I was chatting to a friend, and wanted to bite her head off so many times. "Stop being such a whiny little BITCH!" I wanted to scream at her. "Yeah, you're upset because your boyfriend doesn't talk as much as you like and he isn't coming to see you this weekend. But I've heard it for THREE F***ING WEEKS now! GET OVER IT!"
It's also at times like these when I start to remember things. Things I'd rather forget. People I'd rather forget. And I can't shut my brain off. I can't get rid of the memories. I can't stop imagining things that I'd rather not think of. I don't want to think about HIM -- especially not how he broke my heart, or how he's probably engaged now to HER. I don't want to have imaginary fights with him. I don't want to think about finding out how happy he is with her now.
I don't want to think. Hell, right now, I don't even want to breathe. I just want to turn it all off and start again tomorrow.
Too bad I won't sleep tonight.